MY PAINFULLY DISILLUSIONING, YET FACTUAL, LETTER TO A YOUNG IDEALISTIC FRIEND ABROAD, WHO HAS BEEN ENCOURAGING ME TO DO WHATEVER I AM DOING...

Hey ......

Great getting your mail, after ages. A fantastically honest mail. Thanks.

Incidentally your mail just reminded me of some lines, half forgotten, written by someone I have forgotten who (lol, I ain't getting younger, it appears ). These wonderfully honest lines often come to my mind, when I am on cross roads of life...

"खतरे के निशान से ऊपर बह रहा है उम्र का पानी,

वक़्त की बरसात है कि थमने का नाम नहीं ले रही;

आज दिल कर रहा था, बच्चों की तरह रूठ ही जाऊँ,

पर फिर सोचा,उम्र का तकाज़ा है, मनायेगा कौन;

रखा करो नजदीकियां, ज़िन्दगी का कुछ भरोसा नहीं,

फिर कहेंगे कि चले भी गए और बताया भी नहीं;

चाहे जिधर से गुज़रिये,मीठी सी हलचल मचा दीजिये,

उम्र का हरेक दौर मज़ेदार है,अपनी उम्र का मज़ा लीजिये..."

Yeah, of late there has not been any exclusive interview. Only some so-called panel discussions where moderators try to incite and goad panellists trying to make them 'bark and fight' like ferocious dogs, transforming the show into crazy dog fight shows instead of  serious thought provoking ones. Of late I have stopped accepting such invites aswell.

Apart from these dog fights, I have also been busy visiting places and universities trying to create much needed awareness on the drug issue. I, however, feel that my attempts have been a dismal failure. sometimes I feel that i have wasted my energies on a futile and useless venture. Sad...

Sad indeed.

Yes, besides 'wasting' my time, as mentioned, in the preceding lines, I have also been busy trying to make  some more of powerful enemies (as if the existing horde of them was not enough).

I have also been busy studying 'basis' to file a PIL in Supreme Court of this country, seeking registration of cases against some Indian political parties for deliberately making false promises to be-fool people, if not the nation, but never fulfilling them. Not fulfilling them because there was no intent ever. Even while formulating their election manifestos or indulging in 'verbosity' (now popularly called 'JUMLA BAJI'), they know / knew that such allurements can't be fulfilled. It was, just an attempt to be-fool and cheat the nation, making mockery of the Constitution of the country.

Funnily, 'Cheating', in India 'incidentally' happens to be an offence under sections 420/34 of the IPC (Indian Penal Code) besides causing 'breach or trust'. But unfortunately these appears to be applicable only on lesser mortals. Rich and powerful appear to have been 'exempted' from their application. Various leaders & manifesto makers need to be imprisoned and fined heavily for this blatant 'Cheating and wilful undermining' of the Constitution, and Spirit of the Nation. Instead they go merrily scot-free and keep sitting smug and smilingly in their ivory towers ridiculing the lesser mortal of the citizens and Constitution of this unfortunate nation, 'INDIA, THAT IS BHARAT'...

Man, honestly speaking, often I feel ashamed of having born an Indian. The nation has since become a 'RANGMANCH of POLITICAL NAUTANKIES', romantic and scintillating theatre which used to be immensely popular in rural North, particularly U.P. and Bihar etc. 

To sprinkle salt on my injury, I have till now not been able to locate any good lawyer who is ready to take up this case in question on a token payment because I am not in a position to meet their enormous monetary demands.

My planned act has also infuriated vested interests. Threats have increased  and I don't know when I am done away with' or fall pray to their Machiavellian and criminal designs.

Several of my 'friends' have been trying to dissuade me, but what can I do?

"कहती है मुझे ज़िन्दगी, कि मैं अपनी आदतें बदल लूँ,

पर बहुत चला हूँ, मैं लोगों के पीछे, अब थोड़ा खुद के साथ तो चल लूँ...

You have written about your friends planning not to return to India and make their future abroad. Under the given circumstances, I think that it is a wise decision. These politicians have made this country not worth living. It is not what it was meant to be. Not what it used to be either. Instead of trying to work for the country, most of them are busy working for themselves in all possible ways, all three 'Ws' included. Any one can see through their nefarious designs, but no one has guts to check them...

"उसे लगता था कि उसकी चालाकियाँ हमें समझ नहीं आतीं,

पर हम सिर्फ ख़ामोशी से देखते रहे, उसे अपनी नज़रों से गिरते हुए..."

And watching them stooping lower and lower into the gutter, my dislike and hatred for most of them has only increased, forcing me to go my own way, which, I know will only eventually lead either to my gruesome murder or implication in fake and false cases, some of which I have already been facing for quite some time...

But again...

"खुद से जीतने की जिद है, मुझे खुद को ही हराना है,

मै भीड़ नहीं हूँ दुनिया की, मेरे अन्दर एक ज़माना है..."

Sad that I am not getting younger day by day otherwise I would perhaps revolutionised the country.

Chal, I think I have bored you enough, my young friend.

Take care

Make your decisions carefully 

And be happy

God bless...

-S.K.

P.S.

I have half a mind to put my pain on my blog site. Have not written one in ages...